LOVING MY HEART TO LIFE
JOHN 10:10
I am realizing more and more that my heart needs to be fully loved in order to be able to fully love. I am seeing this in many areas of my own life and some in the life of others. In order to me to be able to give love I need to have a heart that can contain real love. I need a heart to sustain loving and being loved, which means I have to release any and all false ideas about what love is.
This is true for any relationship whether it is in a natural family, friendships, courtships or marriage. We can only love in direct context to the health of our own hearts. A wounded, bitter, disappointed or otherwise broken heart will be very limited as to its capacity to both receive and give back love. Each one of us has seen the results of the damage an “unloved” heart can cause. It is all around us in varied and multiple forms: child abuse, broken marriages, violence against women, random shootings in schools and other public places are just a few examples of the fruit that comes from an unloved heart. With these facts in mind it is small wonder that Jesus puts so much emphasis on the importance of love. (John 15:12 & 17; James 2:8) Also small wonder why the enemy attempts to devalue it through inappropriate relationships between men and women, same sex marriages and other forms of lust. (1Tim.4:1; Jude 18)
As a believer of many years I felt my heart was both capable to give and receive love from Jesus as well as from others. Several months ago Jesus took me through a time of what I call “major heart surgery”. For me this meant having the Lord peel off the outer layer of my heart in order to let the pink new tissue of my heart come forth. It was not a fun thing but so very necessary. While I lay on the floor weeping I saw the picture of what was taking place in the spirit realm. I saw the hands of the Lord very gently peeling back a layer of my heart. This layer had become brown and leather-like. It had lost its flexibility to move and change easily so had to be removed in order to allow the new pink tissue of my heart to be exposed. When the process was over, I then saw Jesus pouring oil over my new flexible, pink heart that was beating and pulsating with new vigor. (Ezek.36:26-27; Ps. 51:10)
I immediately noticed a difference. My heart was much more tender toward issues of life that had brought little to no response in me before. I was much more sensitive to the heart cries in others and could actually feel some of the pain of others when I was in their presence. This brought me to a place of prayer for them out of a heart of true concern and love whereas before I would not have had the ability to feel or intercede on that level. Other changes came forth also, clearer vision in the spirit, different perceptions when confronted with life’s issues and challenges, more clarity in the prophetic, were some of the things I noticed while learning to live with this ‘new heart’. I now realize that without this process taking place my heart would not be in position to remain “at rest” in this new season Jesus has me in. My life has drastically changed in these past 3-4 months. I went from being called to extended hours of prayer with little else to do with my days to being put back into the marketplace in a the form of a full time job, I have new relationships with precious people the Jesus has put into my life, as well as new daily ministry opportunities. The heart surgery I had endured was needful in order to prepare me to the season I am in now. Truly the Lord is faithful!
I see now that Jesus, in His great love for me, wanted me to fully engage with him on a new level so He had to give me a new heart in order to do so. I was not going to be able to traverse the new journeys of partnership with Him with the heart I had so he gave me a new one. He wanted me to truly love, to really know what love was from His perspective so in order to do that I had to have a new heart. The old heart had become inflexible and to dependent on things that were no longer necessary as Jesus was calling me closer to Him so had to be replaced with one that had the strength and flexibility to both love Jesus deeper thus allowing me to love others fully as well.
I believe this was necessary for this new season Jesus has drawn me into. I have to be open to fully love in the relationships I currently have with family and friends as well as the new relationships He has prepared and made ready for me to walk into. I have come to realize that every process the Lord takes us through, every experience is useful for our good if we will allow the Lord to use it. Truly, what the enemy means for our destruction the Lord can and does use for our great good if we will keep our hearts pointed to Him.
I encourage you to allow the Lord to minister to your heart in this way. Honestly, the process is intense but the results are so worth it! Think ‘no pain, no gain’.
Anything and everything Jesus takes us through or allows us to go through will reap a reward for us if we will walk out what He has for us fully trusting Him to work it for our good.
May you experience new places of Jesus in your journey with Him!

Venetia Carpenter
Ecclesia Int’l Ministries

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